I’ve been contemplating this recently. As a Christian, should I even demand justice for my own abuse? What about for others being abused? It seems right somehow for me to want their justice, and yet somehow wrong to hope for my own. In fact, isn’t sort of downright unforgiving to wish for justice against my traffickers and abusers? In wishing for their “justice” what am I really wishing for anyways? What would that even look like? And then there’s a double standard if I can fight and hope for justice for the little girls in Thailand who are being trafficked, but not my own. Is it because I have been freed and found healing in Christ that I feel I no longer have the “right” to hope that my abusers come to justice? There’s a mess of confusion that has swirled around this issue in my mind. I had settled on forgiveness and letting God sort the rest out, and I really was good with that – until recently when God decided to bring this subject back to my attention.
Here’s the thing. Justice is not a noun. And it’s not a verb. Justice is a MAN. Jesus Christ suffered on the Cross for every single, horrible, unjust act ever committed. And He WILL be returning to the earth as a righteous judge to establish His kingdom in justice and righteousness (Isa. 9:7). Justice, the Man, demands that every single sin be paid for. He was willing to pay for them all. He died to do just that. As my righteous judge, I can be assured that He will see to it that the horrible suffering I endured is atoned for. Those who perpetrated those sufferings against me have a choice. Either they can repent and allow Christ to pay the penalty to restore justice to me, or they will have to pay themselves.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am NOT sitting here reveling in the thought that they will somehow pay. No. In fact, just the opposite. I am overwhelmed at how intent Christ is on bringing justice to the earth and making every wrong right to the point of desperate hope that my perpetrators will humble themselves and repent before God!
Here’s the picture. This is what God said about Jesus as the ultimate judge and bringer of justice:
Here is my servant, whom I uphold, my chosen one in whom I delight; I will put my Spirit on him and He will bring justice to the nations. He will not shout or cry out, or raise His voice in the streets. A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out. In faithfulness He will bring forth justice; He will not falter or be discouraged till he establishes justice on the earth. In His law the islands will put their hope. Isaiah 42:1-4
We have a righteous judge who is coming to bring justice to the earth. His mind is made up. He is not worried about it. The matter is already settled. He will not falter until he establishes justice on the earth. He is the One who will wipe away every tear and make all things right.
I no longer feel the need to push aside those thoughts and questions in my mind about what happened to me – to feel guilty about this longing in my heart to see justice for what happened. And I am slowly emerging from this place with even more passion to pray for my abusers – that they will choose to cast their sin on Christ who willingly paid to bring me to wholeness so that they will not face that day where they will be required to pay instead. Amen.